Tuesday, September 30, 2003
imagine being able to do every single question...filling in every single blank..computing every single figure..completing every single task on time.imagine never again feeling lost and flustered in the midst of the papers..never worrying about the scores for knowing that results are garanteed.wonder how will this feel.is it even......attainable?or is it just another fragment of my imagination?if it is,then i guess,this is far from possible.obstacles loom up ahead in hope of catching people unprepared and off guard.,then tripping them and watch on the disastrous outcome...again in hope that they'll never pick themselves up...beaten...what then the alternative?to perhaps skip over the boulders and land unhurt?of coz.
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vanna
15:05
Tuesday, September 23, 2003
thank god i did not catch the man utd V arsenal home match.would have smashed the tv set if i did after nistelrooy missed THAT penalty during injury time.quite beyond comprehension how he missed that.everything was right.the 'keeper dived the wrong way..it was a make or break goal..a givaway,and he just had to miss it.think he hit a little too hard to make sure but lets not doubt him as united's striker.stuck in the 3rd place in the table..arsenal's one point up,top of table..
little misfortunes along the way..hoping to grab fate by the neck to turn things round.had a pretty bad week.only tuesday today yet it seems like friday.monday and today was waaaay too long.things have side tracked..need some planning to get things right.reality's slowly sinking in.it bites.but no problem,i'll deal ok with it.on the other side,gettin ready and gearing up for the last lap of the year.whole year's achievement will be based on these 3-4 weeks.holy shit..reality truly bites.i shall bite harder then.
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vanna
17:30
Sunday, September 21, 2003
you're asshole.
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vanna
16:39
Saturday, September 20, 2003
i've never met someone who embraces life as much as she does.i've never seen someone with more capacity of the joy found in the simplest things in life..living life in every breath.we should all live and let live.never let the future disturb you,for you will meet it if you have to with the same weapons of reason which today arm you against the present.some lament how unfair life is..very pessimistic indeed.very often losing sight of the light at the end of the tunnel.its always good to look at the brighter side of things and keep faith.coz no matter how little the chance,if we hang in there,things are gonna change for the better.perhaps other might disagree with my views but to me,well..my glass is half full and i like to keep it that way.lets hope she hangs in there,hold on tightly,and all shall be well in the end.i still see a spark in her..and it shall be kept burning.
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vanna
23:51
you are the earth fairy!
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vanna
18:31
Thursday, September 18, 2003
the most terrible feeling on earth must be the feeling of being left behind.seeing others charge ahead of you and you not being able to catch up.you wont know how this feels till you experience it yourself.dammit.dammit.sometimes,though results are half expected the blow's still heavy and you wont be able to take it like you thought you could.holy shit..what the fuck have i done.
the phaomnneil pweor of the hmuan mnid.
Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be at the rghit pclae. The rset can be a total mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.
fcuknig amzanig.just another thing that demonstrates how we should all look at the big picture instead of focusing on those minute details that dont matter.
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vanna
17:19
Sunday, September 14, 2003
in a dilemma..yet an answer must be given soon.always been stuck in this sorta situation and not knowing how to solve this bloody thing.you know,sometimes people dont see eye to eye but what i think is important is that as one,we proceed in the same direction..with the same aim,though different approaches and finally reach our destination.there are 2 kinds of people in this world.the first kind,those that enjoy the process of reaching out for their ultimate goal,and the second kind,those that think that whats important is the outcome and not the journey through it.well,sad to say,im the latter and am not ashame to admit it.yeah..term starts again tomorrow and so the neck-to-neck race continues.the final results shall be excellent and up to standard.nothing short of what i expect.much procrastination once again during the break.not surprising that certain things have not been achieved..finals start at the end of the 2nd week so i have only this much time to pick up before i get my ass kicked..
ronaldo put up an impressive performance last night for man utd,tumbling to win a free kick at every touch,causing much booing of the home fans.referee seemed damn biased towards the home side,refusing to show euell the red card,doing so only after numerous hard tackles.nistelrooy fired 2 shots in the second half,bringing charlton to a 0-2 defeat.utd closed the gap to one point within arsenal..with arsenal drawing 1-1 at highbury.
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vanna
23:00
Friday, September 12, 2003
sept 11,2001.hijacked airliners crashed into WTC killing 3000 odd people.2 years on,the legacy of 9/11 is ever-present in the minds of many im sure.sept11 revealed that the age of globalization was also the age of religion.it was a perversion of religion that flew those planes into the twin towers.every religion says 'thou shalt not kill',and every religion has more than its fair share of fanatical loyalists who have killed to prove the point.the pious cannot begin to strive for good until they recognize the potential for evil in their faith and the evil done in its name.today,ground zero holds an empty spot where the twin towers once stood tall.remnants long been cleared,yet horrors still lived on,evoking strong emotions,never straying far from minds of millions around the world.for those who perished in this terrorist attack,lets hope they have found at last some small measure of the peace we all seek but few of us ever find.
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vanna
11:46
Tuesday, September 09, 2003
all talk about loyalty is nothing but bullshit.it can be bought with money,money,and more money.and money is all that matters..isnt it?kenyon is going over to chelsea to help.and whats all this about being goddamn loyal to man utd..supporting the club even as a child.his departure will leave a hole in man utd's administrative department.dont think they'll be able to find anyone suitable to replace kenyon anytime soon.meanwhile maybe he'll just enjoy himself being appreciated at chelsea..selling out utd's inside financial info to them.first becks,then queiroz,now kenyon..BULLSHIT.
have you ever googled in the hope of finding someone out there who shares your experience,in any number of things you did?you want to make sense of your experience or gain hope from those who have been there,been past it...i've have often and seldom found anything.either i'm so unique,or its a pretty inefficient method of finding such things..
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vanna
23:13
Monday, September 08, 2003
this post was supposed to be posted last night at 2011h.too bad i didnt have any access to coms or notebooks,so here is it.saved it in my hp outbox..
looking out at the sea..waves lapped gently against the shores..feeling the breeze against the face..wind whipped hair..enjoying the peace and quiet of the moment..wishing time would just freeze here.no stars nor moon tonight.just thick clouds.sandy beaches..dimly lit parks..people camping and having bbq..cars racing along the expressway..
thats all.nothing of a grand affair last night.just a simple dinner.quite a number of people didnt turn up.not too appropriate i would say..no one talked much..just cramped up at a corner,quietly eating and in a world of our own..slowly drifting apart as we grow..no longer what we used to be..
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vanna
12:08
Sunday, September 07, 2003
england 2-1 macedonia :) macedonia took the lead before half time.think becks rooney and campbell played really well.becks delivering crosses and free kicks,rooney scoring his first international goal,campbell repelling the waves of attack with ferdinand absent.what a game.the 2 gambles eriksson made was worth it in the end.england's next match will be against liechtenstein at the theatre of dreams.meanwhile,turks won them 3-0 so england is still 2 points below.wales was thrashed 4-0 by italy..inzaghi scored thrice.a hat trick in the second half.del piero scored for penalty.other results:
andorra 0-3 croatia
azerbaijan 1-2 finland
scotland 3-1 faroe islands
sweden 5-0 san marino
bulgaria 2-0 estonia
georgia 3-0 albania
ireland 1-1 russia
belarus 1-3 czeh republic
armenia 0-1 greece
ukraine 0-0 n.ireland
romania 4-0 luxembourg
iceland 0-0 germany
latvia 0-2 poland
bosnia-herzegoniva 1-0 norway
slovenia 3-1 israel
netherlands 3-1 austria
france 5-0 cyprus
thats all for the euro04 qualifying rounds.not bad for a weekend...
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vanna
13:48
Saturday, September 06, 2003
some time since i last posted..returned home early from school today..open house thing going on..
things planned earlier on fell through.cant do much about that.similar experiences earlier on have taught me to take things in my stride.looking at people around me..seeing them many times worse off than me..well,perhaps have brought some form of comfort.cherishing more of what i have..thinking that im better off now than in their shoes.its the fourth saturday without ndp..tried recalling the happenings of 9th august and the many previous trainings,but found that memories have faded away.not much of it remain..even the photographs dont really help.significant songs played during ndp and those cheers we sang,they hardly ring a bell anymore.the heart no longer stirs at these once heartwarming thoughts.they've become part of an experience which thinking back now is a little.........empty.guess i've gotten on with life.so let these fragments of recollections stay this way.let them be lost in the complicated mind,maybe never surfacing again,maybe even forgotten years later.
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vanna
11:52
Tuesday, September 02, 2003
its amazing to see the stark contrast between certain things.some people you've known and perhaps understood for the past few years actually pales in comparison with those you barely know for a shorter period of time.the offer of friendship far more genuine and reliable than those bonds built with others over 2 years.its good once in a while to look back at the things you've missed out while being involved in school politics.yeah..you heard me right.SCHOOL politics.being so much involved that you no longer know who your true allies are.everyone hides behind a mask,not revealing their real selves..getting a tad too brilliant at deceiving people.people closest to you may be your real rivals.knowing too much about you..able to turn situations in their favor and against you if the need arises..not once stopping to think whats the meaning of the word honor.having a backdoor to retreat to when you're really sick of all these,when you need assurance that simple-minded people true to their words still exists..thats really damn important.
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vanna
22:41
Monday, September 01, 2003
man utd sunk to a 1-0 defeat yesterday against soton..all thanks to a 87th min beattie header.scholes,solksjaer and ferdinand didnt play..new signings were rather insignificant on field,giggs was the main inspiration.must have been a bad week for ferguson after being sent off in chelsea,slammed by becks in his new book "my side",and the club V country row with eriksson over scholes.well well what can i say..
someone labelled me pathetic once coz after living for 15years on earth..i still cant find a person i can trust totally.not that i have a trust issue but trusting someone completely just seems impossible.why take the risk of betrayal?the one person may just spill the beans,go against you at the crucial moment,betraying all the trust you had in him.its human nature to be self-centred.one can go to any lengths to achieve what he wants even if it means breaking every single relationship tie,going against one's integrity so long as the end result is to his advantage,he'll do it..no doubt.
seem to have lost the steady tempo.feeling a little unmotivated at the moment..3 tests in the next couple of days..assignments to be handed in..open hse preparations to be done before this coming saturday.once again weighed down by responsibilities.this september holidays will be spent trying to catch up on school work and sleep.and of coz certain redx shit yet to be done.need to pick up the pace fast with the finals nearing.any slacking now will mean the death of grades later on.sat trainings are getting increasingly boring..no lessons for my department.in fact nothing to do at all.so just hanging around redx room and the canteen while the cadets are having lessons.really miss the days of being a cadet.life was much more interesting.even with the never ending scoldings and pumpings..
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vanna
13:43
