in one of the more decent conversations we had,a friend said that only after falling hard,will you realize the importance of doing the best to get ahead so history does not repeat itself.past experience tells me this is true,but it has also shown me that memories fade and somehow or other,we slide back into our previous state of complacency.then the cycle repeats itself.so i kept quiet and did not comment.
i dont want to remind myself,but between the last 2weeks and the next 3,i would have
1 submitted 5 essays 2 completed 4 projects 3 gave 7 presentations 4 read 6 novels 5 stayed in school till 10pm 6 had a 10h day in school without a break 7 gone drinking only once or at most twice 8 sent my phone for repair and lost it 9 to settle the paperwork for the summer exchange 10 abso-fucking-lutely no life
the old always tell the young: your perception will change as you advance in the years. but what if..what if the generation now has a completely different mindset from the older one.a more liberal view of things,more radical thinking,less restrain.does this then nullify the life lessons they try to preach?
i always say we can never in the entire course of our life know whether the choices we make are right,because there is absolutely no way of finding out what it would have been like had we chosen another option.there is simply no point of comparison,and no parallel experience we can draw on.and there we have it.the unbearable lightness of being.
besides trying to grapple with the fact that im so fucking busy this semester,i realized i've developed a new found capability in times of stress - cussing in various languages.