Monday, February 28, 2005
how can i look up
when tears flood my eyes
n fall frm my face
bcoz im tired of dis disguise
wanting 2 scream
bt knowing dey wun approve
bcoz dey dun listen
when i wan2 reach 4 a noose
a hurt tt wun stop
my knife stained a deep red
facing reality 2day
wishing oni 2 b dead
how can i look in2 a mirror
when i despise e face tt stares back
how can i luv dis life
when itz been stained in red n black
a suicidal twitch
wif eyes tt bleed 4 dis
a suicidal thot
in a mind whr death is bliss
my heart feels black
n it dosent desire 2 beat
it hates dis life
n i suddenly feel rilli weak
a fallen soul
no longer able 2 float
cant even smile
while dis darkness grows
how can i look up
when i despise evrythg tt i c
how can i luv dis life
when i hate evry1...including me.
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vanna
23:33
Sunday, February 27, 2005
i guess sumtimes e past juz catches up wif u..whether u wan it 2 or nt...i've done sum thgs in my life im nt proud of..bt dis is e 1st time i've eva felt in real danger of hell.
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vanna
21:44
Saturday, February 26, 2005
itz always disappointing how when u thot evrythg wld b urs when in e end only 2 realize it wasnt..n i noe tt no matter wad evry1 else says..e ones out dere competing will always blame demselves 4 nt performing well enuff 2 brg home e trophies...yes indeed winning is all tt matters in a competition..bt sumtimes itz nt 2 bad 2 sit down n reflect abt wad went wrong instead of asking y others won or if e judges were blind...anihow..derez always a nx yr..still e most impt thg is 2 nv quit.nv quit..u win bcoz u’re tougher mentally than e others..n u’re tougher mentally bcoz ur training is superior...if u’re losing..nv quit...if u’re hurt..nv quit...coz u noe u're gg 2 cum up frm behind n whack dem harder den dey did u...
if derez magic in footdrill..itz e magic of fighting battles beyond endurance..beyond e sun burnt skin..aching feet n parched throats...itz e magic of risking so much 4 a dream tt nobody sees bt u.
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vanna
22:10
Thursday, February 17, 2005
sumtimes u juz feel so empty
lyk derez nuttin left worth staying 4
bt @ e same time so much holding u bac
u grope thru e darkness
hoping 2 find light
bt u juz tumble deeper within
nt even able able 2 grasp on2 smth
u wonder y pple ard u seem 2 take it lightly
n so u find urself isolated
lyk nt a single soul understands
u're left all by urself 2 rough it out
bt sumhow
e more u try
e more u stumble.
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vanna
00:12
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
if music be the food of love, play on.
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vanna
23:02
Friday, February 04, 2005
itz nt sensible 2 allow ourselves 2 b annoyed by thgs...we cnt blame e law of gravity 4 our falls n when we trip against smth..we cnt blame e thg 4 tripping us...thgs hav no intelligence...when thgs r involved in annoyances..itz usually we hu r 2 blame...bt pple..annoying pple..r smth else altogether...nature has given pple a sense of reason...when sum pple annoy..itz nt always by choice...dey choose 2 annoy n ttz v annoying.
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vanna
17:14
