hav u eva tried a doughnut shake?stuff e doughnuts down in2 e large pyrex blender cup..cinnamon..jelly..choc glazed..boston cream..powdered..as many as possible...den pour in as much milk as possible...secure e rubber lid...n slam down evry button on tt blender..mix..chop..puree..congeal..wadeva...sit down on kitchen counter n watch as all dose doughnuts turn in2 a thick n lumpy vomit colored sludge...den hurl off e lid..lift e entire concoction..taking a sip...needless 2 say..it'll b e most horrifying dose of conc sugar eva tasted..lyk sinking ur teeth in2 a solid sugar cube e size of a football...
mabbe u din realize dis...bt tt doughnut shake was a perfect metaphor 4 wad is clearly e true chaos of human existence...itz lyk e bk..the stranger..evrythg camus wrote was dead-on..derez no order 2 anithg..derez no reason 4 anithg..itz all juz 1 long list of absurd events wif no payoff wadsoeva..feel wadeva u wan..it dosen matter..do wadeva u wan..it dosen matter...
i cant believe how much time i've wasted tinking my life was leading sumwhr in particular..tinking dere was sum kind of master plan 4 me..as if dere was eva a right or wrong thg 4 me 2 do...derez no mning 2 ani of it...we're all doughnuts..crammed in2 dis giant blender 4 no apparent reason..chopped @..spun ard..n blended 2gether in2 a repulsive n utterly mningless mud...so frm now on..as far as i m concerned..e more absurd e beta...i'll juz do n feel nothg n evrythg @ e same time..in giant swirls n spins n stops n starts...no control over a stitch of it..i'll b numb n den unbelievably pissed off..i'll wan2 rip my door off hinges n break evry breakable item in dis empty apartment...100% pure emotional free fall..total chaos...
control.izen it ridiculous?pple r alwayz trying 2 take control of demselves or else trying 2 control sum1 else...dey're all deluded..when r dey gonna learn?derez simply no such thg as control.none @ all.
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vanna
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