Wednesday, March 23, 2011
in one of the more interesting long distance calls,we were musing about relocation when i said i have really nothing to stay for in singapore anymore and he said,its the same for him in germany.i cant help but feel at that instance that this sounds a little sad yet liberating at the same time.and then i went on to wonder,how much can i take before the scale tips over,or whether its the pull or the push factors that will finally make me say,fuck it all im packing up and getting out of here.but again,im not sure if its rationality or cowardice,but its so hard to go when there's no job waiting for you there.
i think its entirely ridiculous that my little forms of emotional support come from some 6000miles away and from people i dont see very often at all.i dont understand it either.
i would say that every major decision is a leap of faith to some extent because you never know for sure how it will turn out.so the only thing we can consider is really,can we live with the worse possible outcome for that choice made,and how bad is it compared to the worse outcome of the other option.the tragedy of life is that you will never find out and you will be kept guessing about the 'what ifs',because you will never be placed in the exact same moment at the exact same crossroads ever again to make the same decision.such is also the beauty of it.
so i asked her if its true.and she said yes.
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